Show Respect

If you guys read my previous post, you might find out about my current condition in a debate class. To give some correction, it turns out to be better than what I fear but then I want to share some experience about respect.

We were playing a game called yakuza. Putting it simple, I somehow disagree with the rule and even the attitude of my sec leader. What I believed was that he should not flamed the condition. I mean, he should be neutral but he in my view, had sided. As I've told you before, my current sec leader was the same level with me in the previous year. I believed that he had defected the rule of the game which our former president had showed us.  But then it was not about who was right and wrong. What I wanted to share happen next. I felt unsatisfied, thus I argued with him and the way I talked to him was disrespectful, I mean I couldn't respect him the way I respect my former sec leader. Thus I saw him somehow showed an unsatisfactory attitude. He argued back that he was right and he seemed like trying to get respect which he thought he deserved. But I didn't give it even until the end of the game.

Now I kind a regret with my action. I should have showed respect even if I don't feel like doing it. I should not crush his image. I mean, he is the leader, I am no one. He had a reputation, the other students should listen to his advice. Then if there is a student that rebels, me in this case and somehow this leader fails to defeat or I mean win the argument, the leader's charisma will deplete in the eyes of the students. This won't cause harm for me, but it will damage the leader's name. And if I have the chance to help the leader to increase his reputation/charisma why don't I do that? I somehow regret but also glad as at least I still realize my fault.