Burden

You know, most of us hate people who can only become burden. No good people who hinder our progress and so on. And now, what if we are actually a burden for certain group of people? I have experienced it recently and it really sucks.

Usually at the chemistry laboratory, I don't do anything. I will just copy everything from my friends' report. Well, usually there are people who work, usually mixing the substance and a person who will write down what is the reaction or the color changing. Here my position is not both of them. I usually do things that can actually be ignored. But that day, the person who usually writing down the color changing didn't come for reasons. So I was thinking that writing down the color changing was the easiest work among others. Then I took his position. Yet eventually I found out it wasn't that easy. They worked too fast for me to catch up. When they finished mixing, I hadn't wrote down everything. Thus causing my group almost fail at that experiment. Fortunately, even some of my friends got less mark, I kind a grateful that we still got mediocre scores. 

The main purpose of playing a game is to have fun. But if we can't win, it will cause the opposite, especially playing DoTA. There was a day when I spent my time on playing dota with my friends. We played 5 vs 5. It can be counted as tight game. I was thinking we will only playing for fun, so that I didn't pick my favorite hero/character. Eventually I found out that my enemies who I actually didn't know was kind an arrogant person. Thus, one of my friend was mad by that person's attitude and wanted to win that match. But I wasn't prepared and with the addition of the pressure I did lots mistakes and my team lost that game.

Completing the sadness of being the burden, most of my friends do not have the heart to scream loudly that I am the burden. They keep silent which is what I will also do in that position. But that silence actually hurt me more. As I am not that stupid to ignore that simple truth.