Before I joined ELDs, my friend, who sat beside me, always told me that there were some great students with great English. Speech and debate were just like their everyday foods. And all of them were part of ELDs. I had never seen their action with my own eyes until the first day I joined ELDs.
I am still a noob but back then I was totally sucks. I didn't even know the basic of debate. Then I was going to listen a brief explanation from the current President of ELDs, which I will name as X. X was good debater, but he wasn't the people who my friends always talked about. Then came one people who I will name as Y. This Y on the other hand was one of a great debater. He was the senior of X. Somehow, Y took the X place to reexplain about debate. At that time I was amazed by how he debate or speak. I was a newbie, it is unquestioned why I was amazed by his debate skill but what I there was one more thing. His speech. It just like every words that he used were somehow understandable. He didn't use any difficult vocabulary but he could compose the vocabularies and grammars perfectly in his speech . Until now I still can't speak as freely as him.
I was grateful that I was going to be taught by people with skills like him ( btw Y was already graduated when I joined ELDs, he was just visited ELDs for reasons). Last year, my mentor was good, I like his pronunciation and I had good friends that time. At least my English improves but still not that good. Nearly the end of last semester, I began my sophomore lesson which was quite valuable. I joined the debate competition at school. My class lose, probably because of me. But hell yeah, we only recently joined ELDs, none of my friends and I are advanced students or anything like that.
And now, in this new semester. I am supposed to be at the advanced class. It is not surprising. As I am slowly crawling from freshman to sophomore and lastly advanced not directly join ELDs and placed at the advanced class. But unfortunately the time schedule for advanced class which is on Friday doesn't match mine as I have math tuition at that time. I have got no chance then go the normal class and let go that tempting opportunity.
I was thinking that at least I will meet my long-time-no-see friends on this Wednesday. However, sadly confront the reality that their time schedule are on FRIDAY! There I was, with majority of new members. And you know what? There were three mentors for my ELDs class. Two were younger than me. One of those was the same level with me last semester ( and now he is sec leader and I am still freshman. Good, I will always be FRESH). One more left was the president.
Thinking to debate with new members are kind a you know...well, they need to adapt first with the way of debate. By the time they are already accustomed to debate, I will already going to graduate. It just like I am not gaining anything at the lesson. Well, I have ever think that probably I can help the new members to adapt. But there are only like 12 people. Three sec leader should be more than enough to cover all. Pondering more, my friend who is my mentor now will have the advanced lesson and I don't. Up until now, our skill probably still balance but slowly I will be left behind and he is my junior @@. It just like my pride is smears. I want to quit but I feel like this ELDs will provide me with good score and certificate that I'll need in the future. So I think I am just going to hold on. Who knows things will turn around to my favor. Well, even it is not, I think I am going to be fine because I am not mentally coward.
I am still a noob but back then I was totally sucks. I didn't even know the basic of debate. Then I was going to listen a brief explanation from the current President of ELDs, which I will name as X. X was good debater, but he wasn't the people who my friends always talked about. Then came one people who I will name as Y. This Y on the other hand was one of a great debater. He was the senior of X. Somehow, Y took the X place to reexplain about debate. At that time I was amazed by how he debate or speak. I was a newbie, it is unquestioned why I was amazed by his debate skill but what I there was one more thing. His speech. It just like every words that he used were somehow understandable. He didn't use any difficult vocabulary but he could compose the vocabularies and grammars perfectly in his speech . Until now I still can't speak as freely as him.
I was grateful that I was going to be taught by people with skills like him ( btw Y was already graduated when I joined ELDs, he was just visited ELDs for reasons). Last year, my mentor was good, I like his pronunciation and I had good friends that time. At least my English improves but still not that good. Nearly the end of last semester, I began my sophomore lesson which was quite valuable. I joined the debate competition at school. My class lose, probably because of me. But hell yeah, we only recently joined ELDs, none of my friends and I are advanced students or anything like that.
And now, in this new semester. I am supposed to be at the advanced class. It is not surprising. As I am slowly crawling from freshman to sophomore and lastly advanced not directly join ELDs and placed at the advanced class. But unfortunately the time schedule for advanced class which is on Friday doesn't match mine as I have math tuition at that time. I have got no chance then go the normal class and let go that tempting opportunity.
I was thinking that at least I will meet my long-time-no-see friends on this Wednesday. However, sadly confront the reality that their time schedule are on FRIDAY! There I was, with majority of new members. And you know what? There were three mentors for my ELDs class. Two were younger than me. One of those was the same level with me last semester ( and now he is sec leader and I am still freshman. Good, I will always be FRESH). One more left was the president.
Thinking to debate with new members are kind a you know...well, they need to adapt first with the way of debate. By the time they are already accustomed to debate, I will already going to graduate. It just like I am not gaining anything at the lesson. Well, I have ever think that probably I can help the new members to adapt. But there are only like 12 people. Three sec leader should be more than enough to cover all. Pondering more, my friend who is my mentor now will have the advanced lesson and I don't. Up until now, our skill probably still balance but slowly I will be left behind and he is my junior @@. It just like my pride is smears. I want to quit but I feel like this ELDs will provide me with good score and certificate that I'll need in the future. So I think I am just going to hold on. Who knows things will turn around to my favor. Well, even it is not, I think I am going to be fine because I am not mentally coward.
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